My heartfelt desire...

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Sep 24, 2012

My heartfelt desire... (By Tarandeep) (Thanked: 51 times)

she reviewed herself in the mirror for the 100th time...did she look okay??

she adjusted her veil frowning..."breath khushi...breath"she told herself...she had been a bundle of nerves since the morning...

and suddenly out of the blue...she saw him beside her in the mirror...a quaint smile played at his lips...he came closer.....her heart was beating furiously...she closed her eyes in anticipation...

nothing happened....she opened them suddenly and he was gone...she shook her head smiling...she was dreaming...just a few moments left..she wont need the dreams then...reality was more beautiful...she was getting married today....life was perfect...

she heard a blood curdling shriek...which shook her....she rushed from her room...and looked ahead...

everybody was huddled together in the lobby...her mother stood in the center crying....

"tumhe laga hum tumhe maaf kar denge...hunh??"dadi snarled..."your only getting what you deserved.."

she couldnt believe it...what has happened?? The atmosphere was leaden with grief...

she saw a shaking anjali leaning in shyam for support....nani was standing disgusted...at a distance payal wept silently...

she approached the circle...helping her amma...

"haan bas tumhari hee kami thi.."dadi barked...

"kya hua amma??"she asked shaken...ignoring dadi...

amma continued to cry...speechless...

"sab theek ho jayega..."she gave her mother a hollow reassurance...

"haan ab sab theek hai...thank god arnav left..."dadi smirked...

"llleft.."she managed...her heart sinking...

"aur kya...do you think he would marry the daughter of the woman who killed his mother..."dadi replied...

"I ddont understand..."she said crying...he had left her...again..

"arrey...dont fake innocence...you know very well that your so called 'mother' had an illegitimate relationship with my son..."dadi shouted painfully...

all blood drained from her face...

"this isnt true amma?? right?? this is a misunderstanding right??"she begged her mum....anything but this...it was a harrowing nightmare...

"kkkhushi...i hadd no idea he was married..."her amma cried...

her knees wobbled...her world had crashed...everything gone...she was alone....sans him...she was tearing apart....darkness creeping in her...

"NO.."she shouted...sobbing...and slowly as she looked around she felt mortified in the sea of distressed faces.....slowly she walked out...nobody stopped her...

she walked on the road unaware of the shocked glances..."doesnt matter...i am gonna die soon..."she thought dryly...her optimism was sucked out of her...she saw only one solution...death...he would never forgive her now...the rift between them was mammoth this time...and she didnt blame him...

"he had been right..."she murmered.."I am responsible for all his misfortunes.."

he was lost to her....and she couldnt live without him even for a moment...there was no way...pain filled every nook and crevice of her body...

she remembered his tears...her mother had wronged him...

"why??"she shouted...looking towards the sky..."why devi maiya??"

"Il ask you again...when il reach you.."she said wiping her tears...but wait...something is left...she has to apologize before she left...

meanwhile...

he didnt know how much time had passed...everything was agony to him...the wound he had dutyfully stitched fourteen years ago was ripped open...she had killed her mother...forced her to pull the trigger...he was in rage now...

anger seething from every part of his body...he was going to avenge her mother...he would take revenge...he would ruin the life of the person who ruined his...it was only fair....a fire burned through him...he was blind to everything else...

slowly he entered the orchard...he wanted the blessings of his mum...before embarking...he saw a figure standing near the gulmohar tree...he froze...

It was HER

his mind clicked somewhere...he had forgotten about her...she had the blood of his mother's killer...he was debating inside whether to turn and leave or give her a piece of his mind...daughter of a filthy wench...

she was crying her eyes out...

"hume maaf kar deejiye..."she slurred..."i know i have wronged you gravely..."

her tears pained his heart...they lulled the fire inside him...it was khushi...his khushi...the one inside his heart...his soul...

"and i cannot do anything...my mother ruined your life and i ruined your daughter's....my crimes are unpardonable...thats why i have decided..."she pleaded.."to die.."

somebody stabbed him...carving a hole through his heart...he imagined a life without her...painful...unbearable...hollow...he couldnt let her go...he would prefer dying...a life without her wasnt worth living...

"but the injustice to your mother.."his mind buzzed...he gasped perplexed...closing his eyes...

"listen to your heart.."his mum's voice played in his ears.."I am gone..dont loose her..."

he opened his eyes shocked...was it really??

"jab hum aapse upar milenge...hum aapse dobara maafi mangenge..."she sobbed...

"you are going nowhere..."he announced calmly...

she turned speechless...part of her was filled with joy...she had a last glimpse of him...the other part was filled with dread...

"how dare you..."he shouted..."how can you even think of leaving me?? what about your promise??"he accused her...

she stood dumbstruck...had she already died?? and in heaven maybe??

"khushi...we are getting married today...how could you??"he said walking towards her...

"why?? what??"she slurred not making sense...

"unlike you I am a man of my word....i promised you il marry you...and here i am..."he added...

"but..."she said.."what about my mmother??"she whispered...his eyes darkened...and he winced...

"it wasnt your fault.."he replied coolly.."i wont punish you for somebody else's deeds...not again.."

maybe it was unreal...this is unbelievable...maybe she was actually dead...

he cupped her face in his hands..."say something.."he whispered...

his warmth mingled with his scent cascaded through her...she broke loose and sobbed against his chest..

"I tthought i had lost you...again.."she cried...

"i thought so too.."he whispered...and wiped her tears...

"we are getting married tonight..."he said..

"bbbut how??"she shuddered thinking about her home...

"here.."he said..

"here??"she asked confused...

"there is a small temple nearby.."he kissed her forhead....

she was almost smiling...she was breathing evenly now...the crisis had been reverted...he was with her...he had resurrected her...

they walked to the temple together...there hands clasped...

"we need to get married..."she told the pandit...he looked at the couple surprised...but he nodded..

the sacred fire burned in the center....and as they circled around it taking vows...a new life awaited them...

hey...i just hope something like this happens...i want my happily ever after...but then I am a sucker for happy endings always...maybe the cv's arent...this isnt a story...just something i wish happens...fingers crossed..

she reviewed herself in the mirror for the 100th time...did she look okay??

she adjusted her veil frowning..."breath khushi...breath"she told herself...she had been a bundle of nerves since the morning...

and suddenly out of the blue...she saw him beside her in the mirror...a quaint smile played at his lips...he came closer.....her heart was beating furiously...she closed her eyes in anticipation...

nothing happened....she opened them suddenly and he was gone...she shook her head smiling...she was dreaming...just a few moments left..she wont need the dreams then...reality was more beautiful...she was getting married today....life was perfect...

she heard a blood curdling shriek...which shook her....she rushed from her room...and looked ahead...

everybody was huddled together in the lobby...her mother stood in the center crying....

"tumhe laga hum tumhe maaf kar denge...hunh??"dadi snarled..."your only getting what you deserved.."

she couldnt believe it...what has happened?? The atmosphere was leaden with grief...

she saw a shaking anjali leaning in shyam for support....nani was standing disgusted...at a distance payal wept silently...

she approached the circle...helping her amma...

"haan bas tumhari hee kami thi.."dadi barked...

"kya hua amma??"she asked shaken...ignoring dadi...

amma continued to cry...speechless...

"sab theek ho jayega..."she gave her mother a hollow reassurance...

"haan ab sab theek hai...thank god arnav left..."dadi smirked...

"llleft.."she managed...her heart sinking...

"aur kya...do you think he would marry the daughter of the woman who killed his mother..."dadi replied...

"I ddont understand..."she said crying...he had left her...again..

"arrey...dont fake innocence...you know very well that your so called 'mother' had an illegitimate relationship with my son..."dadi shouted painfully...

all blood drained from her face...

"this isnt true amma?? right?? this is a misunderstanding right??"she begged her mum....anything but this...it was a harrowing nightmare...

"kkkhushi...i hadd no idea he was married..."her amma cried...

her knees wobbled...her world had crashed...everything gone...she was alone....sans him...she was tearing apart....darkness creeping in her...

"NO.."she shouted...sobbing...and slowly as she looked around she felt mortified in the sea of distressed faces.....slowly she walked out...nobody stopped her...

she walked on the road unaware of the shocked glances..."doesnt matter...i am gonna die soon..."she thought dryly...her optimism was sucked out of her...she saw only one solution...death...he would never forgive her now...the rift between them was mammoth this time...and she didnt blame him...

"he had been right..."she murmered.."I am responsible for all his misfortunes.."

he was lost to her....and she couldnt live without him even for a moment...there was no way...pain filled every nook and crevice of her body...

she remembered his tears...her mother had wronged him...

"why??"she shouted...looking towards the sky..."why devi maiya??"

"Il ask you again...when il reach you.."she said wiping her tears...but wait...something is left...she has to apologize before she left...

meanwhile...

he didnt know how much time had passed...everything was agony to him...the wound he had dutyfully stitched fourteen years ago was ripped open...she had killed her mother...forced her to pull the trigger...he was in rage now...

anger seething from every part of his body...he was going to avenge her mother...he would take revenge...he would ruin the life of the person who ruined his...it was only fair....a fire burned through him...he was blind to everything else...

slowly he entered the orchard...he wanted the blessings of his mum...before embarking...he saw a figure standing near the gulmohar tree...he froze...

It was HER

his mind clicked somewhere...he had forgotten about her...she had the blood of his mother's killer...he was debating inside whether to turn and leave or give her a piece of his mind...daughter of a filthy wench...

she was crying her eyes out...

"hume maaf kar deejiye..."she slurred..."i know i have wronged you gravely..."

her tears pained his heart...they lulled the fire inside him...it was khushi...his khushi...the one inside his heart...his soul...

"and i cannot do anything...my mother ruined your life and i ruined your daughter's....my crimes are unpardonable...thats why i have decided..."she pleaded.."to die.."

somebody stabbed him...carving a hole through his heart...he imagined a life without her...painful...unb

Sep 27, 2012

beautiful disasters (By Tarandeep) (Thanked: 39 times)

hello...this is an alternative to my first update...what could have happened...that night(when dadi told arnav the truth)...i have allowed my imagination to run wild...so if you all think its tooo wild...plz tell and i would stop...this isnt a story again...thanks...

He gazed out of the clear glass window....monotony eating him inside...his life hapless...saddened,he took out a wilted photograph of his mother...

"am i doing right??"he murmered...

"sir...your files.."phillip broke his revrie with his sing-song voice...

he nodded...and keeping his mum's picture aside he tried to immerse himself in the usual hum-drum of mergers and aquisitions...

"Sir...Mr Lewis invited you.."phillip tried nervously...

"not interested.."he barked.."you can leave now.."

phillip grimaced...and backed off...his new employer intimidated him...he knew networking was the backbone of any empire in London...but..

"sir...but networking..."phillip spoke lightly...

"I asked you to leave..."he replied in rage...

phillip sauntered off...he wanted to stay alive...

He read...and re-read the files...his mind still enagaged in past events...it had been 8 months since he last saw her....8months since he knew the harrowing truth about her mother....

he sighed as her smiling face flashed in front of her...she evoked a mixed feeling in him....his heart yearned for her...and his mind abhorred her...

post that night...he chose a way no valiant man would choose...instead of confronting the demons,he chose to run away...to other side of the world...he knew he betrayed her....but this time he choose to honour his mother....and a deep fear lurked in him that if he ever saw that filthy women who orphaned him....he would end up killing her...

His heart tried everyday defending her......demanding justice...but mind overrulled everytime....his life was chaotic and he simply chose to stay quiet...

He was a bit apprehensive of today's trip too...his di had fallen ill...and pined for him everyday...defeated to her pleas, he decided to pay her a quick visit....and come back to sanity as soon as possible...

"what if i meet..."his mind buzzed...

He shook his head...it was highly unlikely.....he picked his papers one by one prolonging a simple task...his mind replaying his tresured moments...

a flushed khushi cornered on the poolside...

he rubbing his haldi stained cheeks to hers...her touch electrifying him...

a scared khushi as they danced oblivious to the world...

he shook his head brushing the memories...he had no time for them...

next day...

He exited the airport weirdly excited..."ahh...India...there is no place like home..."he thought...he transferred his luggage to his car...it was raining heavily.....

The highway was jam-packed...he twiddled his thumbs debating if he should call aman and ask him to clear the damn roads...soon enough the jam subsided...he was driving hurriedly when a guy came in front of his car waving both his hands...begging him to stop...

The car skided suddenly...he lowered his window angrily...

"please my car broke down..."the man said frantically...

"so..."he retorted...

"My friend's preganant...please help us...we need to reach the hospital on time..."the guy pleaded...

he softened...if it had been his di then...he shuddered remembering her mental breakdown...

"okay..."he said coldly...

"Thank you.."the guy said...and motioned towards the car...irritated,he followed the guy to his car...

"I am holding the umbrella...please help her out..."the guy said agitated...

"god...let it be over soon.."he thought...mentally cursing himself of being helpful...

he opened the door and peered inside.....it took him a second to get attuned to the darkness...but his eyes adjusted soon enough...and bored into surprised golden ones...

A shocked khushi was staring back at him...

Oct 3, 2012

beautiful disasters (By Tarandeep) (Thanked: 51 times)

she blinked her eyes repeatedly...he was still here..maybe she was hallucinating...or maybe not...she clutched her swollen belly....her breath came in short gasps...

"khushi.."rishabh frantically lunged towards her shifting through pages of his guidebook..."okay no need to worry...your water didnt break...and we are gonna reach the hospital in plenty of time...see i got this nice guy to help.."rishabh blabbered...

"devi maiya..."she shouted...he was real....she looked towards the sky reprimanding her goddess for her divine intervention...

she nodded to rishabh...and glanced at him...

he was frozen in the mid air...stupidly the first thought that crossed his mind was that how breathtakingly beautiful she was...even all ruffled up...her hairs flying in all directions...how much he had missed her...slowly his eyes travelled downwards from her face...and he got the biggest shock of his life...

"ahh...buddy..could you just help me here..she is 8 months pregnant...so she needs care.."rishabh roused him...

8 months...

images flashed in front of his eyes...the night slowly replaying....the night they had finally became one...when he had cradled her in his arms never to let go...his hand twitched as he remembered the touch of her satin skin underneath his...

she watched the emotions change on his face..."was he thinking...??"she thought...she blushed crimson looking sideways...

"ahh buddy..."rishabh shook him yanking him out of his daydreams...

"sorry..."he mumbled and bent forward extending his hand...he came closer motioning her to come out...his scent hit her suddenly...and she felt dizzy...she had thought of so many things that she would would do if she met him...she wanted to hit him...demand answers...she wanted to soothe him...apologize for her mother....she wanted to tell him that her mum was innocent...her only crime,love...

but nothing came out of her mouth...and the dizzying feeling increased...he wrapped his arms around her shoulders...one hand crept to her belly protectively...

they both felt a jolt...and looked at each other surprised...they both smiled..

"he kicked...golu kicked.."she squeled in delight...

"he?? golu??"he scoffed his nose..."sorry golu wont do.."

"suniye...hum bas ghar ka naam keh rahe hain...woh kya kehete hain...pet name..."she said annoyed...

"sorry...there is no way..we are keeping our baby's name golu..."he halted as a pain slowly entered her eyes...how arrogant he was??he had let her bear all hardships and now...

"guys i am practically getting old here...wait a second...do you guys know each other...??"rishabh asked surprised...

without a word he helped her out...and led her towards his car...he tossed the keys towards rishabh..."you know the hospital.."he replied...

they both sat huddled together...with each second he was sinking in his own eyes...

"aap theek hain..??"she asked in quivering voice...her words had a deep meaning...actually she was asking if he was okay about the truth that shattered their all-to-perfect world...did the broken pieces still hurt??

for a second he just stared...after what all he had done to her...she was concerned about his well being...he tried changing the topic...this one too painful to dwell...

"you sure there's a boy in here??"he asked suddenly..

"hmm...its just a hunch...but i know..."she lovingly caressed her stomach...

a tear escaped his eye...and he looked sideways as he saw his sins mounting in a huge pile waiting to be sorted...

Oct 4, 2012

beautiful disasters (By Tarandeep) (Thanked: 32 times)

rishabh adjusted the rear view mirror...something was amiss...he could feel it...

"so how do you guys know each other??"rishabh asked taking a turn...

"ahh...hes my relative.."she mumbled...he shot her an angry glance clearly not liking the relative part...

"what coincidence!!"rishabh mused...

both of them stared at each other smiling dryly...

coincidence...there life was full of them....they had been pitied together again and again by luck...luck which had finally ran out...and so did he...leaving her alone...

she shivered...and looked at the pouring rain...she remembered the day when they both stood etwined in rain in the office...the day he had saved her...she looked at him...and he smiled knowingly...reliving with her the day he found himself lost in her for the first time...he had at that time tried to drown it in hate...but...it just wouldnt go...

"a year back...wonder how time flies by"he whispersd...

"did you love me then??"she murmered incoherently...she closed her mouth cursing herself for her idiocacy...maybe he didnt hear...

the car screeched suddenly...they arrived at the hospital....

both the guys helped khushi out and led her inside...

"this is it...plead...cry...beg.."his heart yearned as he clapsed her hands in his...

"Il go alone inside.."she announced in front of doctor's room breaking free..

"khushi...okay.."rishabh said.."just take it as a regular checkup okay...do you want me to call your sister??"

"no need..shel worry unecesserily..this would be over soon.."she answered smiling..and looked at him..he was still deciding....she walked towards the door...

"khushi.."he spoke lightly...she turned abruptly surprised...

"yes i did.."he announced..."and never stopped doing it.."

it echoed in her heart ten times over...and she opened doctor's door grinning..

he sat on the bench near rishabh who was fidgeting...

"so relative haan??"rishabh said..

"how do you know her??"he asked curiously...

"we work together in the goverment school on the outskirts of delhi..."rishabh said.."our staff quarters are side by side...neighbours-cum-friends-cum-collegues"

he stared bewildered...he didnt even once think about her...she was earning in this condition...

"so i guess you know the worthless moron.."rishabh said amused.."her husband.."

his blood boiled...it was one thing to discover one's mistake but totally another when someone hurls accusitions on you...

"excuse me..how.."he seethed...

"sorry dude...you seem offended...but really...i just hope she chooses me.."rishabh said...

he just stared speechless...

"while that insolent guy was happy living his blissful life...i stood with her in thick and thin...because i love her..."rishabh said gingerly...

"you dont care shes someone's wife...they gonna have a baby....dammit.."he shouted...how dare this guy lay claim on something that was his??

"he left her in this state...i dont think that heartless bastard is ever coming back..."rishabh shrieked...

A nurse interrupted them.."patients are trying to rest here...please keep quite or leave..."she warned them...

they both mumbled apologies slumping on the bench...

"but she doesnt love you...she loves him..."he choked...

"hes not worth it..."rishabh whispered back...

"maybe he didnt know she was in this state..."he was mumbling now...

"but dont you get it...HE LEFT...how could someone even think of hurting her...shes innocent like a dewdrop...she changed me...she taught me how to find happiness in small things...she added joy to my life..."rishabh spoke dreamily...

part of him wanted to pound this guy for loving his wife...and other part felt compassion...he knew exactly what he was feeling...she had changed his life to.....she was the one who sprinkled colours slowly and steadily untill he was painting with her their future together....

"shes taking too much time..."rishabh said worried...he stood up with him and reached the door...and knocked..

"yes.."the doctor asked...

they both stared at the empty room bewildered...there was no one except the doctor...

"where is khushi..??"he asked frantically..

"well she left.."the doctor said...

"LEFT??"both the guys shouted...

"ya its been a while...i advised her to get herself admitted immidiatly...and she said she needed some time...so she left from that door.."doctor motioned towards the other door...

they both rushed towards it yanking it open...the hospital was abuzz with activity...

"please give her back...and il never let her go.."he murmered praying for the first time in his life...


@ramya yup vacations...It sucks to be storyless..@dhaks i would never want that too...

Oct 5, 2012

beautiful disasters (By Tarandeep) (Thanked: 54 times)

Dr Pihu khanna stared at the uproar in her room...two worried guys were hurling question after question at her....barely giving her time to answer....her head was aching...

"how much time had passed??"

"do you have any idea where is she??"

"how can you let her simply go??"

she waited silently for them to stop and studied them intently....one of them was lanky...dressed casually,he exuberated a boyish charm...the other one was dressed formally...and though he didnt look much older than the former he had a maturity that the other one lacked...they were as opposite from each other as men could be yet their concern for the person they both loved joined them...and for the first time in her career she couldnt guess who was the husband...

they both had deep lines etched on their forheads...and they were now staring at her with grim expression...

she cleared her throat.."thank you for letting me speak...I think you both are over reacting...she has signed all papers....and she just needed some fresh air..."

"look...doc...she could have come back to us...instead she trotted away..."rishabh said.."maybe its you...you are from his husband's family..arent you??"rishabh asked him...

"okay now please stop...shes has a complication..."pihu tried...

"complication??"he blared...he was already distressed with her disappearing act and all...this was cherry on the cake...

"ya...she has been bleeding...and last she came to me was 5 months ago...from then on she hasnt had an ultrasound...god knows whats shes doing...shes in grave danger..."doctor said extending the paper towards him...

"shes in grave danger"

He felt his world stop for a second...there was no motion...he has shattered his life with his own bare hands...if he had been a bit brave to confront his demons then...

his khushi was endangered...his pure....smiling...loving wonder...was in danger...

rishabh poked him...and he looked up...dark empassive eyes were staring at him...he took the paper from doctor's hand...

"whattts this??"he asked troubled..

"well you see in such deliveries anything can happen...and conditiones may arrive whether we need to save one of the two...either the baby or the mother..."Dr pihu said...she could feel both the guys hanging on her each word...

"and she chose the baby.."he whispered...thats the girl he knew...the selfless one...

"afcourse the baby...but cant we like change that..."rishabh asked worried...

"you cannot...and she left the custody of the baby with Mrs Anjali shyam jha..."the doctor answered...

another blow....he summoned his will power to let him stand...

"who's that??"rishabh said annoyed...

"vaise...she should be back abhi tak..."pihu said worried..."the sooner the better....i need her admitted abhi...or it would be too late...any idea where she might be??"

"temple..."they both spoke together...

"theres one near the enterance..."pihu remembered...

and leaving the gaping doctor they sprinted towards the hospital main gate....

It was still raining as they climbed the temple stairs...the rhythumic chiming of bells welcomed them.....to their utter dissapointment the temple was empty...

"dammit.."he said...where was she?? was it he who drove her out??

"god...where is khushi?? its you stranger...you are the root cause...would you like to tell me who are you??"rishabh looked daggers at him...

"we dont have time for this...lets split up..."he said annoyed...his tears beggining to fall...

rishabh nodded and rushed in other direction...

he exited the temple with a heavy heart...each step back grief leaden...what was happening with him??

why was fate hell bent on ruining his life?? every person he cherished and loved was in pain...his di...his khushi...his unborn child...his golu....

he smiled...he can still set everything right...he can still find khushi...he can still restore happiness...

he entered the hospital asking the people about khushi...as he passed a certain room...a bedlam of cries penetrated his ear...somebody had left the door ajar...he peeked inside....tens of cribs were arranged in an orderly manner...babies rocking in each of them...in a distant corner...bent over a crib stood his khushi...tears were pouring out of her eyes as she cooed the baby gently...

he entered slowly...

"you know there's somone inside me too..."she said.."and i dont know if i would ever be able to hold him in my arms.."she sobbed..

he wrapped his arms around her...surprised she turned to face him...his face wet with tears...

"and you wouldnt be here if wasnt for golu right??"she asked stupidly..."you here for him right?? not for me..."

He just stared...words choked...



Oct 6, 2012

beautiful disasters (By Tarandeep) (Thanked: 36 times)

she caressed her numb fingers against his coarse cheek...

"well...atleast you are here for him...please be with him...dont leave him the way you left me..."she whispered...

"kkhushi..."he spoke trying to drive the darkness..."sorry.."

"you need not apologize for anything..."she said wiping her tears..."galti toh meri hee thi...i expected you to forget that little insignificant detail...i thought you wont bring the past...i thought you loved me more than anything.."

he did love her more than anything...didnt he?? a weak moment has stripped him off eveything he held dear...

"pata hai i even thought you will forgive my mum..."she thundered...his eyes darkened..."all she did was fall in love.."she said gripping the crib tightly...the overwhelming pain grew inside her...she closed her eyes...she needed a few moments more...maybe she wont be able to see him after ...the pain was unbearable now...living without him had been an agony...dying seemed like a shinier prospect now...

"we can really do it afterwards...you are in pain..."he tried desperately...

"but really i was a fool...it was almost deja vu..."she remembered suddenly..."you punished me not shyamji...didnt you??"she asked...

His face went blank...

"the moment you saw us in embrace...it was me who bore the blunt...that man went free...you made me go through the cruel ordeal of 6 months because you thought i was ruining di's life...and my amma being the 'other woman' was punishable under the same offence.."she said sobbing...she had never brought this up before...the lingering distress in his eyes stopped her everytime...but not now...

she stared deep in his eyes....trying to decipher him....he had vowed his life to her...his promises were hollow then...this concern fake...and bis love a mere mirage...

she clapsed her belly tightly...she knew she had no time now...it was one way or high way...she turned...she must get herself admitted...for her sweet simpering golu...

"it wasnt entirely for di..."a faint voice spoke behind her...she halted near the door...

he covered the distance between them in two strides...

"di was just the trigger..."he said lightly.."i think i would have done the same thing...no matter who was in his place.."he confessed...

she squinted her eyes in confusion....

"I kept telling myself how i was doing it for di...while all the way it had been for me....you were mine...and the way i saw it nobody could lay a claim on you...i wasnt interested in what you wanted...i just knew i wanted you close..."he said lowering her head...

she just looked looked on...speechless...

slowly he clapsed his hand in hers...

"i just coudnt see you with anyone else except me...you were my drug khushi.."he said gazing at the frozen rishabh standing silently in the corner outside...their eyes met for a brief moment...

"but you left..."she said childlishly..."i left the whole contract marriage blunder behind me...but you LEFT...i tried to give you every happiness possible...but you LEFT....i gave you my heart...my body...my soul...but you..."she stopped suddenly rubbing her forhead...today's events had more than exhausted her...she wanted to curl up somewhere...and go for a nice deep slumber...

"khushi..."rishabh said softly revealing himself to her.."tum bhi na...bina bataye bhaag gayi.."

"woh rishiji i needed time to catch on...dont tell me you called jiji.."she said nervously...

"nope...you gonna call the godzilla.."rishabh chuckled...

she laughed merely..."okay..il do that...how about you call amma...shes in lucknow...and.."her voice trailed off...and she looked at him...

"I will call them if you want.."he said gently...

she looked at him wide eyed...she felt the surroundings blur...everything hazy...

"khushi..."rishabh's concerned voice seemed foriegn...

"i wont let anything happen to you or golu..."his gentle promise touched her inside...and she was glowing...

she could feel several hands holding her...laying her on the stretcher...but his touch stood out...his warmth seeped inside her...and for a moment she almost let herself believe that they would live happily together...with their golu...almost...then darkness engulfed her removing any strains of time...


thank you everyone...

@riya was it too depressing?? @wanderer thanks hon...but this isnt a story...these are just few updates stewn together...sorry hon thats all i got...i dont think i can write a full fledged story...cant write about villians...i love good characters..@ramya i know...trying my hand at tragedy...bambi is with me...






Oct 7, 2012

beautiful disasters (By Tarandeep) (Thanked: 53 times)

she was pulling in and out of consciousness...everything hazy....her past,present and future in a hapless muddle... it seemed no constraints of time binded her now...images were flashing in front of her eyes...

smiling,she sat squatted in the middle of the lawn...the air rich with the smell of freshly cut grass...she saw him from a distance...he was grinning widely happily jumping with a toddler...

sparkling dreams of future...

in another one ,she was sitting near the sacred fire in full bridal regalia...eyes on the gate...tears pouring out of her hopeful eyes...

"ahh"she sighed as past constricted her heart...

she felt a tender touch on her face...someone was playing with her loose strands...

"you will be well soon..."he spoke gently...."then we all will live together...vaise i had always wanted a little girl like you...its okay we will have her another time.."he said softly...

if she would have been in senses...she would have danced merrily....happiness flooded her...

he watched her as her lips twisted in lope sided smile...and it felt like a desperately needed dawn to his endless night...

meanwhile...

rishabh was pacing back and forth...one part of his mind was engaged in praying for khushi's safety...the other part was distressed...acutely...until a few moments ago he was overconfident...but now his will power wavered...there was overwhelming evidence against him....he remembered how a few seconds ago khushi was being lifted to the stretcher....everybody helped her...he did too...what nagged him now was the way in which she lifted her hand involuntary to touch that guy's hand which held on to her upper arm...like she knew him by touch...and he was even mortified with himself...out of hundreds of cars speeding on the highway he had to halt him...her dreadful husband...

"fate..."rishabh's mind buzzed...he ignored it...he saw him exiting her room.....and he turned to face him...

"do you want to say something..."rishabh said darkly..."before i break your nose..."

he nodded..."thanks.."he said lightly.."for taking care of her when i failed too.."

rishabh wasnt expecting that...the little he had learned from payal about him...he was a ruthless person...his humility disarmed him...

"i owed her that..."rishabh replied..."when i met her i had lost my job...my family saw me as a faliure...they even disliked my petty school job...she revived me...i remembered i was down with typhoid...only she constantly beside me...she resurrected me both mentally and physically..."rishabh confessed...

he looked into the eyes of the guy who was confessing his love for his wife...honesty lurking in them...

"i think shes right...you just here for the baby...take it and give her to me.."rishabh pleaded stupidly...

"dont you see...i would have met her anyway...out of all the cars you could have stopped...you chose mine..."he said convincing him...

rishabh stared silently..."but you made her cry...i laugh...currently i am winning..."rishabh laughed without humour...

even though the girl he loved was strapped to the gurney battling pain...and a guy he just met was laying an honest claim on her, he laughed with him...forgetting they were enemies...

"but you have signed right?? that you want to save khushi if..."rishabh's voice trailed off...

he nodded..."lets just hope no such condition arises...vaise i have ordered delhi's best gynecologist here.."he said..

"no chance dude...did you see the downpour...roads are flooded...i dont think that your doctor will reach here on time...i guess this present doc is fine...Dr pihu khanna.."rishabh said worried...

he shook his head..."what kind of name is pihu?? she looks quite young and inexperienced...how many babies has she delivered till date?? two maybe.."he sneered...

"248 actually..."a clear voice announced..

Dr pihu khanna was standing with her hands folded...

"so howz she doing??"rishabh tried to cover up the awkwardness...

"she has regained consiousness...but she is still bleeding...since technically her gestation period is still going on...we are giving her medication to stop the abnormal bleeding...if stops in an hour or two...well and good...if it doesnt we will take the baby out.."pihu replied with pursued lips...

"can i meet her..??"rishabh asked sofly...

"yes you may..."pihu said nodding...

rishabh slowly walked towards the door and dissappeared behind it...

"poor guy..."pihu remarked...

he looked at her surprised...

she gave him an all knowing look and retreated back to her room...

he waited patiently for him to come out...after some time he was tempted to know whatts going on inside...

he glanced from the window casually...

khushi was hugging rishabh...both smiling...her eyes wet with tears...

A nauseating feeling overpowered him as he weighed his options...

"you made her cry...i laugh.."

his words filled his mind as he turned away from the window...

he was weak to leave earlier...would he be strong enough to leave now??


@dk i love the name golu too...glad you liked it..@samona thanks hon...@riya and dvdv this isnt the end..

@ramya i wont end untill each person is bursting with joy...









Oct 7, 2012

beautiful disasters (By Tarandeep) (Thanked: 46 times)

rishabh entered the room softly...she was propped on the bed an iv tube attached to her....she was humming to herself....it was now or ever...

"may i disturb you mam..??"rishabh said...she grinned in return...still silent...

gently he sat on the chair beside her bed....

"how are you feeling..??"he asked...

"great..."she said..."what did amma say??"

"she was a bit worried...she assured me that she would catch the earliest train possible with your buaji..."rishabh said non-chalantly..."i didnt mention that HE was here..."

"good..."she whispered back...pain slowly wafting back in her eyes...but almost intermingled with pain he saw a thing he had never seen in her eyes before whenever her husband's memory was evoked...hope...it was in her flushed cheeks...in her repeated glances towards the window...in the generous grin she gave to him...

"forgive him khushi...take him back.."words were out of his mouth before he could stop himself...

she looked up confused...

"you two are made for each other khushi..."rishabh said softly..

"buttt...i cannot erase the eight painful months out of my life rishiji...when he was somewhere far...unreachable.."she croaked...

"i dont think these eight months were easy for him too...it doesnt matter if you are on a bed of roses or nettles...if there's no peace of mind..you are plain miserable..."rishabh replied...

"what makes you think he wants me back??.."she asked...she needed reassurance...

"I dont know...maybe his tears when we were looking for you...or the way he went numb when he heard you were in danger...he loves you madly khushi...anybody would see that.."rishabh said ignoring the mounting pain in his heart.."but most importantly you should be together"rishabh motioned towards the sky..."because god wants you to be...think of it khushi...our meeting him tonight is enough evidence...thats destiny..."

she waited for his words to sink in...Is the sparkling future she saw in her dream possible??

"youl be with him...give him a chance.."her heart begged from his side...she looked at him joyously...

"thank you rishiji.."she said.."not just for this...for everything...i dont know how i would pay off your debt ever..."

"oho...dosti main no sorry no thankyou...this is really nothing in comparision of what you did for me..."rishabh added...

"then can i ask for something else..."she tried...

"sure...ask away.."rishabh said suppressing his tears...

"promise me...you will try for a job again...and youl find yourself a girl and get married..."she extended her palm...

"promise...actually il start looking for a girl right now...i would have proposed to you...but you are already taken...you would have said yes..right??"rishabh asked hopeful...

"who wouldnt?? you are a great catch.."she chuckled...

"well i should get going...take care.."he wished.."and you too take care golu.."he added...

"you want to know his real name..??"she said playfully...

"sure.."he said excited...

"Rishi.."she said happily...

rishabh stared at her in disbelief..."cann...i hug you khushi??"he asked....

she opened her arms wide...rishabh hugged her back...making most of the moment...he wont get it another time...

meanwhile...

he tried taking a step towards the door...his feet appeared jammed...steadily composing himself he took his first step...he can leave...for her laughter...her joy...he can...

he had almost walked to the door when her words echoed in his ears...

"you saw us in embrace..and i bore the blunt.."

he halted...and turned...before he could change his mind he walked back to her room...

rishabh came out smiling...still tearful...he caught his gaze..

"you owe me ten porsche "rishabh announced...

"what??"he asked confused...he expected him to rub his victory in his nose...

"ya advocate fees...i pleaded for you in there..."rishabh said annoyed...

he gasped spellbound..not believing his ears.."you did what??"

"i asked her to take you back...actually no begged her.."rishabh said in a matter of fact tone...

"I.."he could think of nothing to say....he was flooded with gratitude...

"what did she say??"he asked childlishly..

"she didnt give a verdict...but i think due to my overwhelming evidence in favour of you..the ball is in your court.."rishabh said...

he felt like an insane gambler who thought he had lost everything...but suddenly out of nowhere hit the biggest jackpot in the world...

he wanted to see her now...bear her pain...lay his heart...he took out the keys from his coat...and tossed it towards rishabh...

"thats one porsche...il deliver the other nine afterwards.."he said smiling...

rishbh tossed the keys back.."cummon i am not that materielistic....how about a job in your company??"rishabh asked...

"done.."he muttered back...

"any post??"rishabh asked...

"any post you name.."he was too happy at that moment...

"CEO.."rishabh joked...

"sure...il resign first thing in the morning..."he replied back finally pushing the door open...of his happiness....of his khushi...








Oct 8, 2012

beautiful disasters (By Tarandeep) (Thanked: 53 times)

He creaked open the door slowly...she was playing with her bangle fidgeting nervously...gently,he walked to her...and made himself comfertable on the side-chair...

"so..??"he asked nervously...his heart was pounding vigrously...

"so.."she answered back...her eyes still lowered by the burden of pain...

he crept his hand atop hers...

"Khushi...I.."he tried...

"you remember the night of our wedding..."she whispered.."sorry almost wedding.."

he stopped suddenly...

"you know i sat by the fire...waiting for you...with each passing minute the fire blurred...but my hope didnt.."she said wiping her tears....

he watched her cry...his mind numb...fear stricken..."she hasnt forgiven you.."a voice echoed inside him...

"I waited till 5 am in the morning..."she said her voice choking...

"shes gone...you have lost her.."his heart gave up...

"every single detail of that dreadful morning is still in front of me...i hated you bitterly then...i needed you...i craved for you...i was alone...i decided to forget you there and then..."she looked at him painfully..."and then..."she closed her eyes caressing her belly...."golu came in my life...and i thought we dont need you..."

"but i do khushi...i need you...i am your culprit khushi...give me any punishment you deem right for me...just dont leave me...i love you..."he begged..."come home with me.."

she stared at him...confused... her heart and mind engaged in a tug of war...

"I love you...you know that...and i would never stop loving you...but you see we arnt even married properly..."she said...

"wait...il be back..."he said rushing out...

she waited patiently for him...

she heard a commotion outside her door...

"Mr raizada...thats not allowed.."she heard pihu's strict drawl...

"you have gone nuts dude...why do you need this..."rishabh was saying...

finally the door opened...and there he stood...a candle flickering in his hand..

she squinted her eyes...perplexed...

carefully...he placed the candle on the ground beside the open space near her bed...

then he went on his one knee...

"khushi kumari gupta singh raizada...will you marry me again..??"he asked praying....

she looked at him surprised...

she looked at rishabh and pihu who stood at the doorway with bated breath....

his eyes were brimming with affection...care...and love...


sorry for the short update...and thank you for your comments...today was a bad day...i was completely distressed...but your comments made me smile...thank you guys...love you...


Oct 9, 2012

beautiful disasters (By Tarandeep) (Thanked: 41 times)

she was in turmoil...his eyes proclaimed his love for her...was it real??

his knee hurt against the cold hard floor.....he watched as she tried to get up...reflexively he stood up and helped her up...suddenly her body shook in a slight tremor....he looked at her hopefully...

"this is a sign...golu approves.."he thought joyously...

she knew her answer then...carefully she cupped his face in her hands...

"Leave me again...and IL BREAK YOUR LEGS..."she shouted...tears gliding along her cheeks... he smiled as joy surged though him...he was in ecstasy...he came closer...

"say it love..."he whispered...his heart moving double time...

"yes..."she mouthed almost inaudible...

"yessss..."he shouted as he crushed her with his arms...her scent filled him...and his heart living in penury untill recently...danced with glee...

sobbing...he encircled her face...she was smiling too...

rishabh watched them together...and he felt good...painfully good...he did the right thing..."hey dude...whatts the candle for??"rishabh asked confused...

"you'l see...Dr pihu..could you??"he pointed towards the iv tubes...

"are you taking her out??"pihu asked horrified...

"nope...just help please.."he said...

"arnavji...aap.."she tried...pihu slowly removed the tubes with a scowl..."look...she cant stand up...also...i need her reattached in 5 min.."pihu announced...

slowly he lifted her up...balancing her carefully...she looked at him questionly...

"shaadi kar raha hun tumse.."he said...her eyes widened..."tumhe phere chahiye the na??"he asked softly....she watched awestuck...

slowly, he circled the candle...

"I vow to stay by your side always...i promise to never leave you..."he said taking rounds...her eyes glistened with moisture...

"you brought sacredness to my life...you completed me...i promise to stay true to you..."he said taking the next round...

she nuzzled into him...his words flowing through her...

"I promise to love our child...and il make sure no harm ever befalls on you both..."he added...taking the third...he thought for a second..

"my turn..."she whispered..

"I will cherish you and provide welfare and happiness for you and our children.."she said remembering the seven vows she knew by heart...

"ill be by your side as your courage and strength. I will rejoice in your happiness"she said delighted...

" Your happiness is my happiness, and your sorrow is my sorrow. I will trust and honor you, and will strive to fulfill all your wishes."she said...

they both stopped...searching for words...his eyes sparkled suddenly....

"i promise to love you always...every single day of forever..till it beats...my heart is yours..."he finished...

they both stood there in their fantasy....music flowing in the air...

"I pronounce you husband and wife..."rishabh announced...

he kissed her forhead softly and laid her back on the bed...their hands clutched still...for eternity

after 30 minutes...

"prep her for operation.."pihu announced...her face grim..as she realised the bleeding had continued..

nurses entered her room...and placed her on the stretcher ready to move her to the OR...

he fidgeted nervously...his palm sweating...

"it will go fine.."she assured him...as they wheeled her towards her destination...

"il be here...waiting for you and golu..."he promised...

"you like golu then??.."she asked cheerfully...

"love it.."he answered.."and love you.."he shouted...

"love you more.."she said as she dissapeared behind the huge door..

he paced back and forth...he tried calming himself in all ways...

"dude...please sit down...il get you something to eat.."rishabh pushed him on the bench...warning him against getting up...

he was numb with fear...he took his phone and dialed...

he heard a deep yawn on the other side...

"di.."he said...

"chotte...kahaan ho tum?? you were supposed to come today.."she asked...

"il come tommorow di...with a surprise for you.."he said smiling..

"surprise??"she asked..

"leave that...you remember mum used to sing us a song...whenever we were scared.."he asked.."sing it for me please.."

"now.."she asked confused..

"please.."he pleaded...

she hummed the song lightly...

"itni shakti hume dena daata..man ka vishvaas kamzor ho na...

hum chale nek raaste, pe humse bhool kar bhi koi bhool ho naa.."

he listened...his fear subsiding...

suddenly the doors of the operation room flung open...he saw pihu come out...her face expressionless...

"something unexpected has happened Mr Raizada..."she said...each word a thunderclap...






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